11.25.09

jacob

it was impossible to imagine on the first day of high school, waiting in line for our books, that you would become my best friend. i never once thought when we first met that we would become neighbors; that we would beat a trail through the woods to get to each others houses, and that we would one day live in california together. and the boys. who could know when we all first started riding around in the bronco that we would all wait in the hospital and have to say goodbye to our friends. we swam in the summer lakes without a thought of the wild and dark days we would go through.

how could we ever know that day when you asked me if i went to fairhaven and invited me to lunch that we would share so much together? so many new years eves (in different countries and millenia), thanksgivings, holidays, birthdays, boys, photos, homes, cities, states, years?

we could never know then.

still i think we just knew we would always be in each others lives even when we weren't.

but the most amazing thing, that i never never saw coming, was how much i would love your baby boy the very moment i laid eyes on him.

one thing i know for certain is that i always, always will. xo