11.10.17

 

eagle eyes

10.2.17

 

reflecting

"guns.  i grew up with guns.  i grew up in very small town america; norwood, colorado.  in fifth grade we were required to take a hunter's safety course.  so at the age of ten we went out in the fields around town with targets and weapons and learned to lock, load and shoot pistols, rifles, shotguns, semi-automatic weapons.  the rifle being the most memorable to me at the time.  i loved it.  i was an excellent shot.

i am a gun owner.  i am a native born coloradoan from deep, deep in the heart of nra country.  i believe in our right to bear arms.  i believe that fully automatic assault rifles should be illegal.  i believe insane people should be unable to own weapons.  i believe that we can all sit back and wait on a nice long background check before taking our guns home from the gun show.  i don't believe the 2nd amendment and gun control have be mutually exclusive.  i don't believe someone should be unchecked in their ability to purchase and stockpile enough heavy artillery to massacre people.  

there is a lot of mythology we grow up with regarding guns, our 2nd ammendment and gun legislation.  but here's a fact: norwood, colorado has a population of 572 as of 2016.  527 were injured and 59 killed in vegas yesterday.  if an entire town of people - say for example my entire town of norwood - were injured or killed, would anything change?  would there be any change to gun legislation?  would we protect other towns?  will we protect future victims?  my heart breaks because i'm afraid the answer is no."

4.26.15

sleepy sunday

a very rainy sunday around here means yoga, brunch, and a game of thrones marathon with family.

10.25.14

dinner party day

this was the only nice part about cleaning leaves out of the pond.

9.2.14

stuff mission success!

it's weird to have my belongings back.  after four years vagabonding i can't figure out why i kept some of this crap.  but the obvious things; the journals, photos, artwork from friends, it's nice to see again.  i feel a subtle difference though - the me with the storage unit and the me with the house full of stuff.  my past has reattached in a way.  i was lighter without it.  

when you have no tangible proof of who you've been and what you've done you can make up who you are each day as you go.  there's something to be said for that.

5.25.14

john in the water

5.3.14

openness

"... The 'shoulds' of expectations.  These are the prisons of life.  Trying to change how we actually feel by ordering ourselves to do so is a strategy that goes nowhere, fast.  Open awareness is about accepting what is and not being swept up by those judging activities.... Our effort to combat our actual experience creates internal tension, a kind of self-inflicted distress.  But rather than march into our inner world and say 'No - don't do that!' we can embrace what is and notice what happens.  Amazingly, time after time people discover that letting things be also allows them to change.  We can approach our inner world with openness ad acceptance rather than with judgments and preconceptions."

~ Daniel J. Siegel, Mindsight

1.25.14

 

                                                                                            bookstore day

"when you run out - then you will so clearly see, every second spent apologizing for who you are was a bloody waste of precious time." 

 - my journal

6.3.13

nikki. me. crsmt.

been spending alot of time with this chick again.  hey nikki, remember when we were in chiang mai....

5.3.13

after the storm

back on the front range of the rockies where the world to the west rises in dramatic and jagged, snow-covered, rock faces and the world to the east flattens for as far as eye can see into a endless horizon line.  it's chilly and snow lingers in shady places, but every plant has a bud and the green grass begins to peak through the brown. 

4.12.13

thaw